Why Can’t It Be

You came along, unexpectedly
I was doing fine in my little world
baby please don’t get me wrong
‘Cause I’m not complaining
But you see, you got my mind spinning

Why can’t it be
Why can’t it be the two of us
Why can’t we be lovers, only friends
You came along
At the wrong place, at the wrong time
Or was it me

Baby I dream of you every minute
You’re in my dreams
And you’re always in it
That’s the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I’m yours
But only ’til I wake up

Why can’t it be
Why can’t it be the two of us
Why can’t we be lovers, only friends
You came along at a wrong place
At a wrong time
Or was it me

That’s the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I’m yours
But only ’til I wake up

Why can’t it be
Why can’t it be the two of us
Why can’t we be lovers, only friends
You came along at a wrong place
At the wrong time
You came along at a wrong place
At the wrong time
Or was it me
Why can’t it be

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im so upset / crying right now / seriously

September 23

ititigil ko muna ang pagpupuyat ko. babawasan ang hobby. naaawa lang
ako sa sarili ko. everyday akong nagtetake ng one gram antibiotic /
two grams of vitamin c / and high combinations of b vitamins para lang
maging awake and to prevent cystic nodules. nilalason ko na naman
sarili ko. for what reason? wala hehe. dati meron.

I'm still and maybe forever na magiisip kung bakit akong ginawang
frail ni lord. survival of the fittest ika nga. well una ko sa mga
matitigok lolzzz.

nakadapa na ko lord pero love na love mo pa deng pahirapan ako. kaya
wag ka nang magwonder kung bakit ako may tampo sayo. kung ung iba
paggising sa umaga tuwang tuwa at buhay pa sila ako e paggising sa
umaga eh nagmumura kung bakit buhay pa den ako. it's a long, winding
road and I'm tired of it. enough na siguro. pagod na pagod na ko.

nag message yung crush ko sa ym. ang kholet hehe. masaya na ko ulet. toink!


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July 19

Umaga na naman. No actually 4:43 sa clock ko (a.m. ha). Dito gumagana
ang pagiging writer. No actually naguubos lang ng oras. Ano ba ung
Lang sa America at lagi na lang tong ino-automatic na icapitalize ng
dictionary ko? Kainizzz

Dinalaw na naman ako ng kalungkutan ko. Ano ba ikinalulungkot ko
naman? Reality. Nag flashback na naman na I am destined to live in
this filthy life. In this human body. In this world. Zuidaido na
naman. Nabasa ko sa bible story "prophet Daniel sees our day" - nakita
nya kaya ko? Ano kaya ako pagtanda ko? Sa totoo lang kung ganito lang
din ang magiging buhay ko eh mas masaya na sigurong pumanaw ako ng
maaga. Mahirap intindihin pero nalulungkot talaga ako. Ayan naiiyak
nako. Ako kasi eh. Lagi ko na lang iniisip bakit hindi ako ginawa ni
lord na ganito, na ganon. Why nya ako ginawang ganto? Lagi ko syang
kinakausap - di naman siya sumasagot. I'm doubting if his real or
imagination lang ng people na naghahanap ng faith and hope and
everything. Sana real sya syempre. Para may sisihin ako. He is god of
love. Why puro suffering ang dinidusa ko. I'm wearing a mask - sabi ng
friend ko minsan. I'm not real. I laugh pero fake laugh naman. One
minute na masaya one hour na hindi. O sige timbangin mo kung sino ka
man. Nung nagaaral pa ko lahat binebefriend ko. Mula model hanggang
katulong. Mula nerd hanggang mejo eng eng. Mula matino hanggang drug
addict. O diba ang lawak ng scope. I always help them kung may
kailangan sila, pwera pera tsaka math. Pero nagpapautang naman ako
hehe. Pero why ang world hindi ako sinasangayunan? Hard to explain. I
don't deserve this treatment.


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July 18

Ang galing ngayon ko lang napagtanto-never pala ay ang hirap isulat.
Pero sige isusulat ko na lang ung dinidictate ng utak ko. Sa tagal
kong nabuhay sa mundong to, I never had a chance na magkaroon ng ng ng
eh nakalimutan ko. Wala yata akong emotions. O emotion lang. O
nakalimutan ko na din ang meaning non. Siguro. O di lang ako deep
magisip. Siguro den. Hindi ako naging happy sa buhay ko. I live
because I don't know. Nageemo ako ang kulit. I don't smile. I don't
know how. Laging naka pout ang lips. Hello Angelina Jolie. Wala akong
direction. Obvious ba sa sinusulat ko. Before I don't look back. Now
nakatalikod naman ako. How ironic leche. Parang I don't know how to
continue my life anymore - suizaido wahehe. I need a reset - sa lahat.
Lord kung real ka bigyan mo ko ng amnesia. I need to start all over
again. I mean it-from the start. O kaya ganto na lang ipanganak mo ko
ulet. Ang sagwang basahin hihi. Wala din akong initiative sa lahat.
Sabi nga ni Ellen Degeneres ang commencement daw ay hango sa 2 words
na comment & cement. Nasemento na. Maybe the biggest blunder that I
have committed to myself eh nung I changed side dun sa mga people na I
thought na maglilift saken. Military disaster. Lagi pa naman ako
nanonood ng history channel. May kanya kanya naman pala sila agenda
hihi. Na left lang pala ako. Wawa hehe. In the end I'm all alone. Emo.
Maybe if I just sticked to the persons who know who I am edi sana I am
living a better life now. Hindi katulad ngayon-secluded. Kahit
nakikipaginteract ("nakikipagsex" ang sinaggest ng dictionary-malibog
ang pucha hahaha) ako sa mga customers namin eh iba naman un. It's all
business ika nga. Scripted. Sa totoo lang di ako magaling sa mga
conversations. Kaya siguro naging materialistic ako masyado. Doon
napapako attentions ko. Ang galing ng iPod ko super low battery na ok
pa den. Apple rocks!!! HP sucks!!! Ok let's go back. Parang sa theory
of natural selection. If you want to survive eh you need to adapt.
Wala na ko maisip.


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heya

grabe ang tagal ko nang di navisit ang blog ko.

magpopost ulet ako.

nahihilig kase sa facebook ahihihi

new member to the family - Apple MacBook Pro

project runaway: episode 1

this is the search for the next gigantic fashion designer

12 contestants / 3 finalists / but there will be no winner

3 designers will make their runaway debut

at divisoria fashion week

and the winner of project runaway will receive everything they need to start their own label

for these 12 contestants project runaway is a chance of a lifetime
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Heidi Clam: Today's episode is all about your model's other job aside from being a model noh!?!

Michael Course: There is a lot going on in this creation. The moment she turned to that corner – I’m puzzled. The upper part of the dress seemed fine but the lower part was…sorry to say more dreadful than the word “disaster”
















Pinya Garcia: What’s that thing hanging on the right side of her booby?

Designer: It’s a patch

Pinya Garcia: Oh really?!? So you’re trying to make a silhouette of some kind – but it didn’t work out. It worked against your model. It’s like she’s hiding her asset.

Michael Course: Ha ha ha. Yeah - absolutely

Heidi Clam: I’m wondering whether the gown was inspired from egg trays or from the movie “the scream”…
















Michael Course: The Scream?!?!?!?!?!?

Heidi Clam: Yeah… You know the mask of the serial killer





















Michael Course: ha ha ha. I remember now

Heidi Clam: Is your model a singer?

Designer: Yeah

Heidi Clam: So she’s a singer. Maybe Michael the holes in her gown represents the audio speakers that catapulted her career to stardom noh?!

Michael Course: I don’t know Heidi…

Heidi Clam: Ok… so we are going to have some deliberation here. Models and designers please leave the runaway.

O D Ba

yep yep yep

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

watch ako nito sa friday

gulo

ang gulo gulo ng desk ko ahehhe















quality of the picture sucks

finally - iPhone OS 3.0 for iPod touch 2G

i really had a hard time upgrading the operating system of my device the other day... iTunes store displays that the software is available but everytime i hit the update icon - it failed to download the software.
















i tried my luck yesterday - and after using a backup credit card because my primary card - for unknown issue get declined - worked - thankfully - next problem was the $9.95 price tag for the upgrade.

Rolo Lamperouge

Hes my favorite character in Code Geass. Too sad that he had to die in this series. Hes the coolest character ever. Kill kill kill!!! -young assassin with a big heart [for Lelouch at least]

[He didn't die in this scene. He gave up his life to save his brother Lelouch Lamerouge when the stupid Black Nights betrayed Zero/Lelouch]

Code Geass: Leleouch of the Rebellion

haaa i love this anime. well i have 3 favorite series now: Neon Genesis Evangelion, Death Note & this [Code Geass]

i really don't think that Lelouch died in this anime.












i bet hes the driver of the cart filled with hay with CC on top. he did became an immortal like her.













this driver's head is covered all over the place especially the eye area when the weather is not that extreme. CC is on the top of the hay lying on her back looking up in the sky.

remember when CC was praying with matching tears before the altar - she never said that Lelouch will die. Maybe she was crying because Lelouch will be separated to everyone he loves.

leche

i've been trying to update my ipod to the latest software update offered by apple... but...













ay leche

woah - cheapest ipod ever!!!

look at apple store asia now and check if they still sell $2 ipod touch - hehehehe - wrong typo maybe

audi wall

desk

this is the new look of my desktop now













and here's my start menu. no useful programs no? hehe

new member to the family - Acer X193HQ

nothing fancy here. its not even pricey. we just sent our previous display monitor to early retirement [we expected that crap to last for 5 years but we already fired it in under 3 years]

its like any other lcd monitor.

well it's the first 18.5" from Acer

L

I like watching Death Note anime series. It’s so sad that L had to die, only to be replaced by two kids [M & N]. It is his fault anyway. He let his guard down hehe.

copycats

this was a post by Paul a. (from http://www.engadget.com/2009/05/28/zune-hd-hands-on/#comments) regarding to the upcoming release of the Zune HD - which is also considered as the next contender of the iPod touch.

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Microsoft can't create anything original because it's not in their DNA to make something original. Windows was successful because they tricked IBM, but they haven't been able to duplicate that success in other products, because once people know the trick they are rarely fooled again.

They can't physically make a product in the market until someone else shows them how. Let's look at their history.

Windows: copy of the MacOS
Microsoft Office: copy of Lotus 1-2-3, WordPerfect
Internet Explorer: copy of Netscape
Xbox: copy of the Playstation
Vista: copy of OS X
Zune: copy of the iPod
Live Search: copy of Google

In the not so distant future.

ZuneHD: copy of iPod touch
Bing: another copy of Google.

end of his comment.
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ouch. pretty true isn't it?

microsoft on the other hand keeps on denying it. but why oh why cant these guys release their "thing " or "bling" first for a change so they will not be accused of copying the technology of other companies.

what i do know is when Apple speaks everybody listens - and everybody will copy their technology

when Microsoft speaks nobody listen. they are good in pushing crapwares to you and insists that if you don't get it... youre dead.

*funny nugget

december 2007. i showed a photo of then newly released line of iPods to my friends in school. they said that the products from apple were great but quite expensive. one of my friend said "i think zune is better" and i replied that zune is not doing well in the united states and i havent seen one in any stores in manila. most of my friends quickly asked "zune... anu yun???" - which literally means: ZUNE...WHAT IS THAT?

may 2009. a few hours ago. i told my sister that zune is battling ipod touch. she turned to me with a wrinkled forehead and her 2 eyebrows already touching each other and asked "zune... anu yun???" - which literally means: ZUNE...WHAT IS THAT?

new member to the family - Apple Composite AV Cable

photos courtesy of http://www.apple.com/

flashback - flashback - flashback

"im a great walker"

i was 17 y/o that time. nagshashopping kami ni sister sa megamall sa manila. pumasok kami sa isang boutique at habang nakapila me sa cashier eh may kumausap kay sister at sinabihan siya: bakit hindi ko daw subukan mag model modelan. hahahahahahaha - ang lakas ng tindig powers ko nun ah!!!! well pag uwi pa namin tsaka sinabi ni sister sa akin un. sabi ko naman: "ayaw ko, maitim tuhod ko" hehehe photah.

when i was 22 naman. nasa mall din me [sa shangrila] ako lang - eh hilig ko maglakad. basta sa ground floor un ung malapit sa mercury drug - may kainan don - ewan ko kung anu pangalan. may 2 kumakain. tapos aun napadaan nga ako. nagbulungan na mejo malakas ung 2. sabi nung isa tangina galing maglakad o. sabi naman nung pangalawa - kaya lang ang payat. sabi naman ulit ni una - eh di pakakainin. hehhehehehe. okay!!!

eh hindi ko naman sinubukan. dami ko sana pera hahahaha.

kaya lang my sleepless habit is taking its toll na. mukha na ko addict hihihihi

im still a great walker though.

news:RP faces early rainy season

reports said that the republic of the philippines is expected to have an early wet season. actually i love it. like most vampires - from edward cullen to selene and to me - we love bleary, rainy days.

hell breaks loose

im really having a hard time with my current monitor display. the menu keeps on appearing. i don't know why.

i did some researching and found several factors why it is happening. sadly - im to lazy to find ways to solve it.

this is my current display - HP mx705 17" CRT











if worse comes to worst i am going to replace that with this

AOC 913Fw
































































pretty!


[pero iba ang nabili ko wahehehehee]

the ageing fleet

next acquisitions would be:

UPS
iPod USB Charger
iPod Dock
Macbook

you're replaceable

Good thing my open letter did something to make a final decision be turned down. I’m happy of course. I’m a bit sad. The authorized Apple retailer finally replaced my device. Well that’s my third iPod within a year. Would you believe that? Haha. You should. But in the end of the day there are other feelings that get hurt. Competency challenged. I’m sorry. But no retraction will be made. I have no feeling of remorse.

defender

When I was 18 I dreamed of becoming a bodyguard. Not to protect a politician. I hate bureaucrats. I prefer to defend ultra rich businessmen, or super talented kids, or very precious rocks. I have no training in shooting or whatsoever, but hell ya I’m a sharp shooter. Bang!

Well a dream will remain a dream until they happen. Lolzzz

These will be the weapon of my choice:

im a long range fighter by the way. honestly with my built, i have no match in fist fighting hehe.

USP 45 MATCH - close to mid ranger

WALTHER PPS - defense

WALTHER WA 2000 - sniper - long range

OPEN LETTER

OPEN LETTER TO STEVE JOBS

Dear Mr. Steve Jobs

Sorry for my poor English.

Apple has gone worldwide. Yeah.

But how does your company manage the repair/replace services to those countries outside America?

I’m from the not so great "the Philippines" and let me tell you that the apple service here really sucks.

Allow me to tell you a little story. October last year I purchased a 32gig iPod touch 2nd generation and it showed annoying whitish lights at the upper and lower corner of the device after 3 months of use. Contemplating if the so called apple tech in this country will replace my device, I took a huge gamble and went to the authorized apple retailer after a month. So I get my ass there and the attendants looked at my device - and they just keep on saying "the problem is not so obvious," turning the device up and down, left and right. I forgot how many times they said and did that. But I insisted so they took my device and told me to wait for 7 to 10 days, hoping that everything will be fine. After 7 days the apple retail store messaged me telling that my new iPod is ready for pick up. Thank god.

So I picked it up after a day and hurriedly went home so I can start all over again. I placed the new iPod to the rubber case, powered it up, and synced it to iTunes, done.

But I am so so wrong. On the 8th day of using the new iPod - just out of curiosity, I removed the rubber casing and I was amazed of what I saw: there is a leaking light at the right corner of the device. Thinking that the problem was minimal, I switched off the room light to check for the problem again. Much to my dismay, that lighting problem is much worst than I previously thought.

The light at the corner of the device is much much brighter than the screen itself. If you look closer you can even see the interior of the iPod. I even googled the problem and found out that other people are experiencing the same thing. (http://www.hacktheipodtouch.com/hardware/light-leak-problem-on-the-2g-touch/comment-page-1#comment-7745)

So I decided to return the product again. I went to the store again - and tell the attendant that there is a problem again on the device. They looked again and want to know what they said? "not obvious not obvious not obvious" I tell them to look closer so they can see. I even tell them the problem is really noticeable if you are in a dark room. But the tide is really against me - the not so obvious thing is just so powerful. But I did not concede and insist again that they take the device because it’s defective. He said that the servicing team may not replace the stupid thing. I’m disgusted. He excused himself and went to the other customers, leaving me there hanging, not knowing what I am going to do with my stupid iPod. Good thing I installed Tap Tap Revenge2. When the other customers are gone he returned to me and said "so what we are going to do with it" I tell him that I needed the device to be replaced. He called another attendant and that person get a service order slip and asked me about the problem, took the device and the process is repeated: wait for 7 to 10 days. On the 9th day I called that apple retail store to ask if they are going to replace that god damn thing and they delivered me the most amusing news of all time: "NO!!!"

Actually Mr. Jobs we are really planning to abandon Windows since last year. The Mac operating system really fit with our needs: saving photos, making movie clips, keeping our music well organized, and a lot more things. We are about to purchase a new line of Apple Macbook, but the world financial crisis prevented us from doing so, because the investment of my parents to a local bank here partnered with an insurance company based in Australia is slightly affected and they lost a considerable amount of money.

But this experience that I had with a local authorized apple retailer really made me think otherwise.

P.S. hoping you in good health and please move your assembly plant out of china.

haaay

kainis april na at 1 pa lang ang natutupad sa wish list ko

wala na ko pera / backpay ko ayaw pa i-release

wala pa trabaho wahehehe

actually wala ako balak mag purchase ng n97 [kase trip ko ung bagong lalabas na iphone hehe]

ung ipod touch 2nd gen ko di pa bumabalik saken [i returned it kase may factory defect / actually twice ko na sya isinoli kase nga may defect - at kung ma replaced un eh pang third na ipod ko na un - kase pinapalitan kase hindi pwede mareplace ang defective parts]

haaay

tamad ko kase

from now on my pc is dedicated to audi

audi: i love this car

si daddy ay nag purchase ng car [brand new syempre - allergic kami sa second hand] sa isuzu alabang - di ko na sasabihin kung anong type.

well kung si ako ang tatanungin eh trip na trip ko ang mga cars from audi. i don't know much pagdating sa mga class and pros and cons sa mga type ng cars pero napaka astig ng brand na to.

the avant garde of the wheeled world.

love at first site baga ang feeling wahehe.

p.s. - i don't know how to drive -

photo: audi a5






























[when kaya ako makakaapak sa audi alabang??? toink]

new member to the family

Seagate FreeAgent | Desk 500GB 7200RPM External Hard Disk Drive



































well actually eh second choice ko lang naman to - dahil much preferred ko pa din ang Western Digital Mybook Home Edition [pic below] - out of stock kase wahehe.























ika nga eh when the president is away eh the vice president will take over

so far so good naman siya. it's a new product from seagate nga pala.

it complements with the theme of my desktop [gray and black and white] kaya okie na den. pwede ko rin i-encrypt ung mga files ko para protected sila [ung sa western digital wala yata encryption technology]

Ako ay may lobo

Ako ay may lobo

aketch ay may lobing

nagflaylalu sa heaven

di ko na na sighting

nagexplode na pala

sayang ang anda ko

pinambili ng lobing

kung lafang pa sana

nabusog pa aketch

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this post has definitely nothing to do with balloons - in fact i hate them hehehe

reflection lang nung latest pinoy film na na-download ko. wala kase kwenta. ayun tuloy hindi ko pa tapos panoorin eh sa file shredder ang kinahantungan nya - hindi sayang ang pera kungdi ung time and kuryente na nagastos - well sayang na rin nga pla ung pera kase babayaran din un by the end of the month.

hirap kase sa ating pinoy pag sikat kuno ung direktor eh automatically eh maganda na ung pelikula --- WRONG!!!

mas mahirap satin eh kung sikat ung singer eh automatically eh maganda na ung kinakanta nya - kesehodang sumisigaw na eh hiyaw naman tayo ng papuri --- KAENGOTAN!!!

ayoko na mag elaborate ng iba pa

ang point lang eh natatabunan ng kasikatan ang kakulangan, kamalian, kapintasan at kung anu ano pa

kawawa naman ung mga artista

ang moral lesson - - wag mag download ng pinoy movie pag sikat ang direktor wahehe.

project runaway

this is the search for the next gigantic fashion designer

12 contestants / 3 finalists / but there will be no winner

3 designers will make their runaway debut

at divisoria fashion week

and the winner of project runaway will receive everything they need to start their own label

for this 12 contestant project runaway is a chance of a lifetime